I have some beans to spill.
I know I have been alluding to some big changes in our life here lately. It all started with an accident we had on the highway. We were all okay but we couldn't help feeling like something was wrong in our life. A brush like that makes you think- makes you question your priorities. I guess it really started long before then but the accident shook us into making some decisions about our life.
It left both of us wondering what, exactly, our priorities were. Jay and I have been working very hard but never seem to get ahead. Our dreams and goals just weren't coming into focus. We have been going through the motions of our life together and as a family. That's not the way we want our life to be.
We love the neighbourhood we live in. It's really more than a house on a street. It's a community that we've grown in for the last 12 years. We have moved from house to house to house within this community- finally settling here. It's really my dream house. Not to big and not too small. Generous rooms with high ceilings and stunning old trim. I love this house.
But it's really just bricks and mortar. And the simple fact is that we cannot afford to live here in this big house. We aren't living the life we want. The mortgage payments are too high. We are working so much we don't have time to spend together as a family.
It turns out, we are moving. To a new neighbourhood and a new community. We listed our home yesterday and the sign will go up sometime this week. I have had time to tell a few close friends but I apologize if anyone else dear to me reads this here first. I am having trouble facing the decision myself, and that makes it hard to share with other people.
There are many reasons that I want to stay. But there are a few very important reasons why we need to go. It has been a difficult decision for us, and one neither of us is really happy about. But I think it will be freeing for us. I think it's a step in the right direction for us to create the life we really want.
I've been getting the house ready to list. I will show you the 'after' shots of my hallway and staircase tomorrow and fill you in a bit on what we are looking for in a new house.